By My Side

[for Swamiji, for Umesh]


For so long you stood by my side
Showed me how far, how high
How well I could fly… if I tried

To dance, to sing, to live
To breathe in Love’s life-giving breath
To see the light of fairy tale forever in your smile…

Then one day the sun did not rise
It was to heart heaving darkness
That I opened my eyes
And the painful glaring emptiness
Of no YOU by my side…
I cried

There’s never forever
Your dream was just a lie
I danced, I sang, I breathed
I lived but a living lie
Until
In the smiling eyes of strangers
I found your dream
In their voices, the whisperings of your love
Your love that showed me how far, how high
How well I could fly… if I try


[1st Feb 2007]